I Dreamt of Sunny
Late last fall I had a dream of Sunny. She has appeared in many dreams, but this one was different. It wasn’t so much the content of the dream, but the feeling that it left behind. Just like my conversation with Pappaw, I was left with a feeling that this was more than a dream.
I dreamt that we were invited to Skye’s parents home for dinner. At some point during the evening we were all in the living room and her parents were sitting together on the sofa looking at some Sunny related scrapbooks.
I was watching them browse and discuss the photographs remembering Sunny, when I suddenly felt someone new in the room and turned to look. My heart missed several beats, as it was Sunny, standing there, smiling and glowing. I looked at Starr in surprise and she gave me this look that said “see, I told you…this is what I have been telling you”. Sunny and I talked briefly and then she said that she had to go. I said “you can’t go with out a hug” and she hugged me, we traded I love you’s, and she was gone. Skye and her parents didn’t see her, and were oblivious to the visit. I was shaken, and shaking…waking up to the vivid details.
Sunny’s smile, her eyes, the way she was sort of shaking with nervous, excited energy like she did so often in life.* I could still feel the touch of her arms around me and smell the scent of her hair.
As raw as I felt at the sudden renewed loss, I also felt blessed and touched by the visit. The message that I received from this dream was that somewhere, somehow, Sunny is fine. We aren’t fine yet (far from it), but she is.
I hope that it’s true.
*Here is a quote from the book that I have been trying to read that illustrates the kind of energy/spark that Sunny carried with her:
…Sara walked beside David and again he had the feeling that though her feet were going through the motion of walking something inside her was running, skipping, something so vital and electric her small body could not quite contain it.
“Five Smooth Stones” – Ann Fairbairn
