Thankful for Laundry

Posted by Kelly on January 19, 2009 in Flickr Photos, Life, Starr, Sunny | 1 comment

originally uploaded by caterpillars.

It was a friend’s post about laundry the other day that fueled this post.

Laundry. Never ending. Constantly being generated. A must do chore.

Despite my numerous protestations here and the number of times I have personally cursed the ever growing piles of dirty clothing. I am thankful.

With each load, warm, clean and smelling fresh, I am grateful that I still have Starr in my life. That, despite the intense pain of losing Sunny, I still have her here. I was “this close” to losing both of them that day. I cherish each phone call, text, plea for help, meal cooked, dirty dish and every article of dirty clothing that comes with her presence in my life. I even cherish the arguments and petty fights that we have. Which might just account for still being a pushover about doing her laundry while she is at school.

With each tank top, sock or pair of jeans, I am thankful. While at the same time I am pained. Deeply. I miss Sunny greatly and am crushed multiple times daily over her family’s pain and loss.

It is possible to be both grateful and broken at the same time. I wish that I didn’t have to know this fact.