Missing Sunny, Today and Every Day
In a few short days we will be passing the second anniversary of the accident and Sunny’s death. Sunny’s death, that is so hard to say, write, think.
Ani and Sunny, May 2006 at Red Robin, Starr’s 17th birthday.
Just like last year, I am stunned that time keeps passing, as Sunny is still a part of our every action. We miss her, we ache for her family. This years round of Spring weather, proms and graduation announcements have again set off my emotional triggers.
As I pull this post together, the sun is shining, trees are blooming, the birds are chirping, my windows are open, there is a slight breeze. It is hard to reconcile the movement of time, of life going on, with the fact that Sunny is no longer here. I suppose I need to learn to accept that it will never make sense, that the only thing I can do is keep living and loving.
To accept the things I cannot change. Change those I can.
Easier said than done.
Sunny, we miss you, your bright smiles, your silly jokes, your sense of community responsibility, your light, your beautiful voice, just how flippin’ excited you would get over things and the way you would trip into the house, clumsy and smiling. I love you.
I don’t have any recordings of Sunny, but this one of Starr’s might be appropriate:
mp3: “To the Sky” – Starr, 16 years old
Kelly, I know that nothing I can say could ever fill the empty whole in your heart. But I want you to know that my thoughts are with you during this time when Sunny’s memory is so vivid in your mind. From what you’ve written about her here and in past posts, I got the impression that she was an amazing young woman. She has obviously left her special “one of a kind” imprint in the lives of so many people that loved her. Thank you for sharing Sunny’s beautiful smile and Starr’s beautiful song with us today.
I’m sending hugs your way! And, if I could treat you to a margarita I sure would!
I will be keeping you in my thoughts and prayers… ((HUGZ!))
Here’s to better days!
Thinking of you and Starr and Sunny’s family today (and everyday). Remember the good times. Hugs to you and hug Starr for me.
Hi!
came over from the link on the VGNO…wow…what a touching and sad story…I’m not quite clear as to if Starr & Sunny are sisters? That must all be horrible to go thru. Sunny was a very beautiful girl. Thank you for sharing…you will be in my thoughts and prayers for continued strength. Hope your weekend in a good one.
(((Hugs)))
Thank you all for your emotional support. You have no idea just how much it helps!!