Starr and I were reminded of this story the other day. I still don’t have a explanation, but I do know what I saw. Since it has been on my mind for the past few days I thought I would revisit my original post:
I saw her standing at the end of the hallway, the end that opens into the living room. It was a couple months after the accident, after Sunny’s tragic passing. I was rushing a bit, doing housework. I don’t remember if there was a reason for the rush, possibly just to be finished with the work.
I took the full bag of garbage from the kitchen and placed it in the garage. Returning to the kitchen, I realized that I had forgotten to grab a new garbage bag for the kitchen can. To the hall, turning right and taking a couple steps towards the living room before I notice that I am headed in the wrong direction. I stop short, and turn around back towards the laundry room where I keep those types of supplies. As I am turning, I look up towards the living room and there is someone standing there, female, mostly in silhouette, but I did see that her clothes were white. She was just standing there facing me, arms at her sides. I wasn’t shocked to see someone there, I didn’t think twice about it; I assumed that it was Starr.
Returning moments later to the kitchen, with garbage bag in hand, I expected to find Starr there, but the room was empty. Odd. Leaving the bag on the counter, I went looking for her. It had taken me less than 15 seconds to retrieve the bag, and I knew that I had glimpsed someone standing there. Starr was the only logical choice, as it is just the two of us who live here. As I start walking into the living room, she noisily comes up the stairs from her basement bedroom…wearing black.
I knew that there hadn’t been enough time for Starr to have gone from standing in the hall dressed in white, to coming up the stairs dressed in black in the time it took me to get a garbage bag and walk into the living room, but I had to ask it out loud anyway. “You weren’t just up here were you?”
“No, Mom. Why?” Well…and I tell her what I saw.
So, was it Sunny? This is my first thought. I don’t know. I do know that I saw someone, something. Beyond that, I just don’t know. Darkness suggested that it could be a vision of Starr’s future, the symbolism of black and white, darkness and light. A message that things will get better, that despite the overwhelming never ending sadness and uncertainty that we are currently experiencing, that there is and will be light in the future.
I haven’t seen her or anything similar since. However, Sunny and I did share a “Pappaw” dream, which I will post soon*.
Sidenote: Daisies were Sunny’s favorite flower. I always imagined that she liked the white ones, but I don’t know for sure. I saw the photo above last summer and was reminded of her.
Starr placed an ad on Craigslist recently. In addition to some hopeful leads it also generated this email:
Hello great day
Ive seen your ad on craigslist… Might thought ill drop you an email and guide you..
Do you currently have job right now? cause I know its not easy to get a work this days
but me and my sister are doing this for 4 months now since i quit my day job..
It make my life really easy trust me. actually my aunt just recommend this to me.
and it really helps me alot actually i already quit my day job when i start doing this.
i like helping people but i want to help people who want to help themself.
ok so the thing that im talking about is called XXXXXX kit
all i did is get the XXXXXX kit and then when XXXXXX send me the kit after that week
believe me im already making 300 to 800 a day..its not that hard i cant even believe it either.
it really shock me when i recieve my first check after a week I got the XXXXXX kit..
thats why i want to guide you without expecting in return.
it really change my life imagine not going to your day job every day?
and your earning more than your day job just following this easy steps?
anyway this is their post
**URL removed**
Like I said it already make me up to 800 a day. it really change my life so its
worth a try at least. Just implement the steps as soon as you recieve your kit and you
will achieve this success that everybodys looking for. if you have questions
just email me anytime..
Hope you have achieve this success like i did.
Have a great day.. And Hope you Success!
I never consider it. I don’t really like to shop in the first place. I hate crowds. I really hate standing in line. I didn’t bother looking at the sale flyers. I assumed that, just as in years past, I would sleep in, have a lazy morning followed by some leftovers for lunch, followed by a lazy afternoon.
Starr had other plans.
I told her that if it was important to her and if she woke herself up, to come wake me up and I would go with her. 3:30 in the morning she knocked on my door ready to get going. Damn. She had a small specific list for Kohl’s and for Target. We did NOT stand in line outside the stores, but arrived just in time to follow the last of the lines in the door. We did our business and were done before 6 am.
Back in bed by 6:30 where the rest of my day could proceed as originally planned!!
Whew!
Here is one of my favorite holiday songs from last year, I hope to find a few more this year:
Starr has been home full time since Friday afternoon. She totally distracts me from my normal routines, which is both good and frustrating at the same time!
At this very moment my house is shaking with Christmas music. Starr couldn’t wait another second. She is officially in the spirit, as am I…but I wasn’t ready. It is hard to resist when being pumped with fun Holiday tunes!!
I went this weekend with friends to watch our friend Vicki Pompea sing at the local tap room. It was nice to get out. I always have to laugh at my daughter who gives me a hard time about wanting to know when she plans to be home, because she will text me “when are you coming home?” nearly every time I go out.
It’s sweet.
**singing along with the music—let it snow, let it snow, let it snow**
I told Starr as we drove out to Rosemary’s farm that I only had one name that I really didn’t want to use. Bella. Not because I didn’t like it, but because Randi’s little sweetie is Bella. I felt she should own the name. In addition JLO’s daughter is Bella, I would feel more comfortable finding a different name.
On the way there we saw the most incredible moon, low to the ground, huge and orange. Wow. I suggested that we could find a moon related name.
“No mom. I knew a Luna once and I will always think of her when I hear that name.”
Okay, not Luna.
Probably because I put it out there, we kept coming back to Bella. I also suggested Izzie. Starr immediately leapt onto the name Isabelle and wouldn’t even discuss alternatives. So she calls her Isabelle.
Isabelle doesn’t feel right to me, so I am calling her Izzie…sometimes (mostly!) Bella, because I am consistent like that!!
Bottom line is we ended up with the one name that I said I didn’t want…and it suits her.
I can’t think of a decent tagline for this blog to save my life!
I turned to Starr for help. She drew a blank.
I looked up great taglines on Google. Fun, but they didn’t spark any awesome ideas.
I might just rotate taglines like a Facebook status until I find the best fit.
Today I am The Hippest Mom on the Block.
Which made me laugh because what you might not know is that we live on a little street of all senior citizens! Starr and I stand out. It doesn’t take much to out hip my neighbors. I am not hip!
No offense of course, we have really enjoyed our lovely neighbors and living in this little corner of the world!
I had never heard of Zen Doodling or Zentangle before last night when I saw it referenced on this post 17 Resources to Awaken Your Right Brain on the Abundance Blog at Marelisa Online. It’s been a long time since I picked up a pencil to draw, it’s been a long time since I made my last stained glass panel. I just haven’t been feeling very creative in the past few years. These Zen Doodles caught my eye and I just had to try it.
I wanted to clarify what a Zentangle was for you, but they’ve done a wonderful job here on What is Zentangle! Here is part of their detailed explanation:
Zentangle is an easy to learn method of creating beautiful images from repetitive patterns. It is a fascinating new art form that is fun and relaxing. It increases focus and creativity. Zentangle provides artistic satisfaction and an increased sense of personal well being. Zentangle is enjoyed by a wide range of skills and ages and is used in many fields of interest.
We believe that life is an art form and that Zentangle is an elegant metaphor for deliberate artistry in life. Explore our web site and learn how you can use this wonderful and uplifting discovery.
I gathered my supplies and made my first one! I need to learn to relax and not worry about making a mistake and just let go and let it happen, but I enjoyed what I did. My only issue was the kitten, who just had to play with the pen as I doodled.
I actually used to do something similar when I was in college, but I had forgotten all about it until I actually started drawing…memory is such a funny thing.
I was watching Castle last night while playing with the kitten and I heard not one, but two songs that I’ve posted here in the past. It’s always fun to say, “yeah! I know that one!” (..and even better: “I’ve posted that on my blog”….I am so hip! *snort* …Or not…)
Ugh, I thought that I was so sure, I wrote down “everyday” but I didn’t save the recording to verify. I am (embarrassingly) 88% sure that this was the song*. I hate my brain some days!:
Name? Kelly. Mysterious? Not really. Passionate? Yes. Lazy? Sometimes. Outgoing? Not a bit. Trusting? Mmhmm. Artistic? On good days. Crazy? Could be. Trustworthy? Absolutely. Graceful? I wish. Sarcastic? Often. Deserving? You bet. Forgiving? Yes. Religious? No. Spiritual? Yes. Uncertain? At times. Confused? Sure. Distracted? Daily. Silly? Yeah. Talkative? Not. Punctual? To a fault. Breakable? Quite.
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This is not a music blog. While it is my desire to share free and legal music here (music is a part of me), it is not my goal to critique this music.
If I have posted music, it is because I like it, and it moves me at the moment. It might match my mood, it could be on repeat, or mirror the sentiment of my post. It might be quite random, and just what I wish to share.
*Older links may not always work, as promotional MP3s, in particular, are known to disappear without warning.
Artists and labels: if I have erred and posted a song inappropriately, let me know, and I will remove it.
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sing at the local tap room. It was nice to get out. I always have to laugh at my daughter who gives me a hard time about wanting to know when she plans to be home, because she will text me “when are you coming home?” nearly every time I go out.
