Time for a Change
I started this blog just over three years ago. I thought that it might help me find a voice, or just speak the one that already existed but I was afraid to share, and as a desperate attempt to “get over” the death of Sunny. Cheap therapy.
So far, I don’t think that I have truly achieved either one of those goals. I do have things to say (I mean REALLY say), every day, but I don’t. I do take a stand once in a while, against hate, against intolerance, for love. As for Sunny, things are better, I feel the load lightening, but it is oh-so-very-slow.
Mostly what I have found are some awesome people who I am blessed to have met, who have shared with me, who have cried with me, who have laughed with me and shared the last three years of my daughter Mayan (Starr), growing up, experiencing college, finding her place (so far!) in this world, all with a great weight on her back. And the joy and support her friends Lexie (Skye) and Sarah (Sookie) have been to both of us.
After stumbling a bit with my erratic posting this Fall, I have decided that the blog is feeling like pressure. A should do, that is weighing heavily on me.
So, I am taking a break. A mental break. It is time to focus my “worries” on other things. Making art. My health. Finding me. Because as much as I love this blog and, even more, the connections that I’ve made, I feel like I have let “me” slide in the process.
I may become a once or twice a week blogger. I may just ditch the project right here. Or…I may come back to it seven days a week! I just don’t know. I might just post again tomorrow.
What I do know is that I am taking my mental “should” away from blogging. I am letting go of the stress of days when I have absolutely NOTHING to share!!
Definitely get rid of “should”. We’d all hate to see you go, but the only things you “should” do is take care of yourself and have fun! ((hugs))
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Thank you! I will do that!
I went through this last Fall when I was stressing myself out over thinking about what to write. And when I had nothing, I was a basket case. Yeah, not a good thing. Listen, I have you on my list and I will keep coming back to check for any updates. But now, I have to remember three new names you just revealed.
Take care of yourself and I’ll keep watching.
Your Friend, m.
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Thanks Mark, I will be checking in on you too. I will probably be back to posting very soon!
Arghhh! Really, another bloggy friend taking a break???? Is it me?
Just kidding. I totally get it. Most of the time these days I have absolutely nothing to write about and/or don’t have the energy to post. A break is good. Just write when you are inspired!
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Ha ha! It’s NOT you!!
The break feels good so far, but I am also missing it.
As soon as it feels like that, it’s time for a break. You’re doing the right thing. Just let it sit until you feel the desire to come back, and I most definitely hope you do!
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I will come back, of that I am pretty sure!!
i so know what you mean.. lately, i am right there with you a tiny bit… but i’ve just decided.. to post when i have something to post– you might not like it or find it interesting… but i did!!!
please please though… don’t leave us all together.. we’d miss you too much… i’ll be checking around here though!!!
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Yeah, I think that just taking the mental pressure off has helped a lot. I will be back.
I agree! Take a break but keep in touch. I am impressed at the undertaking it must be to maintain a blog and have always been impressed with your writing skills. If I have not said that before I’m sorry.
Rest up and enjoy your “me” time!
Thanks Lisa! That means a lot!
Every blogger needs a break! And it shouldn’t ever feel like a burden. I hope you’ll keep blogging, but remember, blogging is for YOU, and if it isn’t doing anything for you, then you’re right that you ought to spend your time doing other things.
So you can just email me three or four times a week to keep me updated.
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Oh no! Once I went back full time, I only blog (obviously) on the weekends or when I have a vacation of some sort. It does start to feel like “have to”. Take a break, but let us know wehn you are back!
xoxoxo
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Totally get what you are saying Kelly! Ever since I went back to work I haven’t been able to blog hop as much as I normally like to and post as much as I like. Ah well… I do what I can.
Blogging is for you. If you’re not enjoying it, take a break or stop. I’ve always enjoyed your blog and you can’t get rid of me that easy! I’ll be checking in…
btw… love the name Mayan! Although at this point, she’ll always be a bright Starr to me!
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I’m really late commenting on this as I too had to take the have to out of blogging… So much pressure for something that is totally for enjoyment!! Life has been stressful enough the past few months! I have read your latexes posts, so I know you’ve been back. I Also feel guilty when I read but dOnt comment. Thumbs are tired. I’m typing on my iPhone!!! HUGS
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Hugs!