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Jan 3, 2011
What I have learned, is that getting over the pain of Starr’s accident and Sunny’s loss is a very long process. Longer than I ever imagined, and I am beginning to feel that I may never actually be able to push through to the other side. However, I am not in the same place that I was last year, where I was slightly better than the year before. Slightly better is good, I will accept that and continue to work on my goals to live and breathe, to smile and learn to accept.
Here is last years post:
I just reread last years End of the Year/New Resolution post. Among other things, I said:
I don’t make New Year’s resolutions as a rule. Setting myself up for failure is something that I try to avoid. I believe that life is about learning and growing, fixing, changing, laughing, and loving…all the time. I try to make it a constant effort and avoid tying it to a specific day.
However, this year, today…not tomorrow…I am going to make a more conscious effort to allow myself to breathe, to live, to accept that I can’t fix this. To stop taking on everyone’s pain as my own. I have enough. It serves no purpose, it really doesn’t relieve them of any of their grief or suffering, it only adds to mine.
And to smile more and mean it!
Yes, Sunny is still on my mind each and every day. I miss her. I think about and send love to her family daily as well, as they still and will always carry the loss of their beautiful daughter. There are days that it catches up with me more than others, but I do think that I have moved forward in positive ways.
I do smile and laugh more and I definitely mean it!!
So, for 2010, I plan to continue…learning, growing, living, laughing, being silly, loving and healing. And I want to make more art.
Starr and Sunny, being silly, Summer 2005
mp3: “Raindrops” – Grand Hallway
“Oh the sound of life, oh the sound of love”
“Oh the sound of change, oh the sound of starting”
Buy it here: Promenade
Sep 9, 2010
It’s been a while since I’ve posted music here, though I am still posting music regularly over at my music blog Bourgeois Blue. Today I thought that I would share this song here too:
mp3: “Like the Wheel” – The Tallest Man on Earth
Buy: Sometimes the Blues is Just a Passing Bird on iTunes
The Tallest Man on Earth-MySpace
Previously posted: The Tallest Man on Earth
Jul 31, 2010
In case you missed it, I have a new music only blog @ Bourgeois Blue and have been posting music regularly.
I hope you have a wonderful day!!
Jun 22, 2010
I am sorry for being a big whiner yesterday! I try not to give in to those feelings, but some days I just get so flippin’ frustrated!!
Music has always been a big part of my life and I have been sharing some of my finds here for a while. I finally decided to open a blog dedicated to my musical finds and spent a great deal of time this weekend futzing with it. I tried several templates that Starr rejected “that’s nice, but…” and she makes a face. The only one that she would approve is the same one I’m using here…so they are like twins!!
Since I just started it, there isn’t much content yet, but I thought I would go ahead and share the link today:
Bourgeois Blue – A Music Blog
Now, to groceries, laundry, cooking and cleaning…the fun never stops!!
And just for fun, I thought I would share this picture that Skye took of Starr recently. Starr is showing off her “perfect” umbrella and her fun rain boots!
A part of her looks forward to rainy days so that she can use and wear them!!
May 16, 2010
mp3: “The Darkest Side” – The Middle East
“…and it’s the darkest side of my heart that dies when you come to me…”
It took a couple listens for this song to grow on me. It’s funny, most of the songs I run into are “nexted” within seconds. I don’t give them another chance, but some, including several that I’ve posted here in the past catch me just enough to garner another listen or two. I don’t know what the formula is, but I am often (but not always!!) quite glad that I made that choice.
The Recordings of The Middle East
The Middle East-MySpace
mp3: “40 Day Dream” – Edward Sharpe & The Magnetic Zeros
This one is a little easier. It kind of swings over a couple styles in a way that I enjoy, one minute I am here, the next I am somewhere else…but I really think that it is the laughter, the claps/stomps and the “ooh aahs” that make me want to hear this one again and again. Yeah.
Edward Sharpe & The Magnetic Zeros
Edward Sharpe & The Magnetic Zeros-MySpace
mp3: “Factory” – Band of Horses
Ahh, Band of Horses…love them. As for this song, I really love the moments between the verses. And…I’m “wondering only what did you do today.”
Band of Horses-MySpace
mp3: “Flagship” – Jump into the Gospel
Darn it, I just like it. I find myself singing along and it makes me want to move. It will be good for housekeeping…loud and energetic!
Songs available (for free!) at their website: Jump Into the Gospel
Jump into the Gospel-MySpace
mp3: “Off the Ground” – Citizen Cope
Starr had a big love for Citizen Cope a few years ago and his song “Sideways”. This song feels a little bigger, but still has that Citizen Cope vibe that feels instantly familiar and somehow right.
The Rainwater LP
May 13, 2010
Starr has declared that this is the summer that she will become an adult. I didn’t say anything, but listened to her musings.
She figures that she needs to become an adult before graduating from college. Before embarking on her career path and then possibly going to graduate school. Not to mention having a family.
How do you become an adult? According to Starr, you look at each decision that you make and consider “what would be the adult choice here?” before making a decision. From clothing purchases–will this outfit be appropriate for work?, to decorations–is this an item that I might want in my future home?, financial decisions and personal choices.
She figures that after a few months, the adult thing will have kicked in and she will be well on her way to an awesome future.
I know that we were just chatting and that she was just looking forward to graduating and getting her life on track, but it made me smile. I don’t remember ever having those thoughts.
Just as soon as I said that I didn’t have an mp3 for The Tallest Man on Earth, I run across one! So I thought I would share it today:
mp3: “Burden of Tomorrow” – The Tallest Man on Earth
The Tallest Man on Earth-MySpace
Apr 26, 2010
mp3: “What’s it in For?” – Avi Buffalo
One of the many songs in my playlist that I just like. It feels right.
Avi Buffalo Will be released April 27, 2010
mp3: “Crutch & Cane” – Peter Wolf Crier
I think I may have a “theme” going for the day. Toe tapping, male lead…
Inter-Be Will be released May 25, 2010
Peter Wolf Crier-MySpace
mp3: “Us vs. Them” – Common Prayer
…a bit homey and familiar…
I can’t find a place to buy their album…check out their Official Website for track listings and another song to listen to!
mp3: “Every Little Bit Hurts” – Title Tracks
…echoing things that I’ve been feeling lately…
It Was Easy
mp3: “You’re Already Gone” – The Dig
…or maybe I’m just imagining things…
Electric Toys Will be released June 8, 2010